Super Psycho Love Ch. 2 - GrayLu Fanfic

Chapter 2: Tell Me Why I Feel Unwanted

Lucy fumed as she stomped through the summery streets of Magnolia. Not only had her relationship with Loke ended far too soon—she had no time to play with him at all—but he almost ruined it for her. If she had not slammed his gate shut and forced him back to the Spirit World, he would have told the whole guild about her dark secret.

Damn that Lion and his keen instincts! He saw right through her intentions from the very start.

What was worse was that dating Loke got no reaction out of Natsu at all, not like the delicious shock he had shown when she began going out with Laxus, and the flaring jealousy he displayed when she went for Gajeel. That choice had nearly ruined her friendship with Levy, but it was worth it to see Natsu fuming. Served him right for breaking up with her!

She was not done tormenting Natsu, either. Maybe it was mean, maybe it was not at all like the sunny face she showed to everyone at the guild. She no longer cared about keeping up appearances now. After all, Lucy had been raised as an heiress, a lady with a large sense of pride and dignity. She had been brought up with servants obeying her wishes, eager to please her. She did not easily forgive those who insulted her or her friends. So how dare some crude cretin like Natsu lead her on for so many months, whisper he would be with her forever, take her virginity, pleasure her in all the ways she always wanted, only to say he was bored now and dump her like that! How dare he steal her innocence and then discard her like a broken toy!

Well, she knew about toying with people! She wanted Natsu as her pet, a little dog to eat out of her fingers. Once he was her plaything, she would punish the bad dog and laugh as he crawled away with his tail between his legs.

For the sake of all future girlfriends, that boy needed to learn that women were not something to be used and discarded. Or so she told herself.

She did not actually want Natsu back as a boyfriend; that was not the issue here at all. His goofy side was plain annoying. He was good in bed, but lousy to take on dates. She just wanted him to want her again so she could deny him his desires. It was similar to the punishments her father sometimes used to dole out to the servants.

Besides, the guy had a dark side to him that thrilled her. Lucy wanted to see that darkness, that dragon slayer whose angry eyes could burn a person's soul!

She had thought an older and experienced man like Laxus would cull out that inner darkness, but perhaps she had made her move too soon. She knew Gajeel and Natsu were rival dragon slayers, and she had hoped they would fight over her. She likely could have pushed them to that point, seduced Gajeel into "claiming" her as his mate, and Natsu would have been able to smell the other dragon slayer's "marking," yet it was not worth seeing Levy so depressed. They broke up with mutual understanding, but then the jerk bragged that he was the one who dumped her. She thought for certain Loke would have gone as far as she wanted, maybe even helped her to teach Natsu a lesson since he was supposed to obey her orders. Alas, that playboy saw something in her actions and bailed out, just like Laxus did when she got too clingy.

So who else? Who could she date who would make Natsu jealous, but someone who would be fine with showing a little public affection to torment her ex-boyfriend? Dating Hibiki and Sting did not work simply because they were too far away. Natsu did not get to see them happy together. Hibiki's flowery praise was hardly anything unusual; he talked to all women like that, so it had no affect. Although Natsu had fiercely warned her not to have anything to do with Sting and definitely showed signs of jealousy, the white dragon slayer was too hard to manipulate. He made a terrible toy. No, it had to be someone in Magnolia, someone Natsu could see every day. That was the best way to punish him.

She paused in the park. Although it was a crowded summer day, she had felt eyes upon her for some time, someone watching her. Looking back, she saw a shadow in the bushes quickly pull back around a narrow tree. It made her heart leap in a moment of fear, but she narrowed her eyes. Some stalker, huh? She could deal with creeps like that.

She pointed her finger sharply at him with one hand on her whip. "Get out here. I've caught you, so just come out."

In his hiding place, Gray's eyes widened in shock. How could she have sensed him so easily? Still, there was no use hiding now. He slouched around the tree that he thought had blocked him and came out from the bushes.

"Yo, Lucy," he greeted, trying to sound casual, as if they bumped into each other purely by accident and not like he had been tailing her for the past ten minutes.

She frowned at him. Gray? That surprised her. "Taking lessons from Juvia in stalking, huh?"

"I wasn't..." he began to yell, yet he fell silent and petulantly looked away.

His shirt was unbuttoned, not missing yet, but likely he had been ready to strip when she called him out. As he folded his arms and looked aside with a faint blush, Lucy could hardly help but notice how that movement made his pectorals bulge. Gray went around topless most of the time, but none of the girls in Fairy Tail minded. He was hot! Her eyes lazily drifted down from the sword pendant necklace, across the guild mark that screamed for attention on his muscular chest, down taut abs, and to his trousers.

She wondered for a moment...why had she not thought about using Gray? He and Natsu were sworn eternal rivals. If Gemini was right, the Ice-Make wizard was interested in the celestial summoner. Following her like this only proved it. A smirk lifted onto Lucy's face.

This could work perfectly!

"Why were you following me?" she asked coyly.

"I was worried. I heard about you and Loke."

A small pang of worry troubled her. "Heard? What did you hear?" She would order Virgo to punish Loke if he came back under his own magic and blabbed her plans of revenge to everyone.

"Not much. The jerk dumped you. That's harsh, especially for Loke. Are you okay?" he asked, looking truly concerned.

Jackpot! Lucy sashayed up to him and bit on her lip to look seductive as she played the victim. "To tell you the truth, it hurt," she said in a small, meek voice. "I thought Loke really liked me, but then he said such mean things to me."

Gray felt anger surge in his veins. "I'll kick his ass!"

"Gray?" She suddenly rested her head on his chest and wrapped her arms around his torso, slithering her hands under the opened shirt and feeling the cool muscles on his back. "Am I really that terrible?"

"Wh-what?" he stuttered, shocked by her sudden move. "What the hell did that bastard say about you?"

"No, it's just...no guy wants me, or all they want is my body. I hate it!" She gave a sniffle and turned her face as far away as possible while snuggling into him. "They don't want me for me. None of them see Lucy Heartfilia. They see big boobs and slender legs." She felt Gray slowly move a hand to rest on her shoulder, awkwardly comforting her. It made her smile, so she buried her head deeper into his chest to hide that tattling grin. Trying to sound choked up, she muttered, "Tell me why I feel unwanted."

The shiver he felt through her body tore at Gray's heart. "Lucy," he whispered.

Gray stroked down her golden hair, feeling the softness of the strands. He had liked her long before she and Natsu started dating. Natsu simply made the first move, and Gray kept his distance out of respect. So long as she was happy, that was enough, he told himself while battling intense feelings of jealousy every time he saw the two share a kiss. He had stormed out in blind fury the day Natsu burst into the guild hall happily bragging that he and Lucy were now "mates." Watching them so happy made him feel ill, yet he continued to smile for her sake.

When she and Natsu broke up, it nearly destroyed their team. Lucy went on more missions with Levy and Team Shadow Gear, or she escorted Wendy and Romeo on their missions since they were underage. It took two months before Erza demanded that the old team should reunite for a mission, and no one argued with Erza. Even now, Team Natsu was a powder keg of drama. Natsu seemed unaffected, Lucy tried to act the same as always, but it was obvious they were both forcing themselves to work together.

Gray did not want to add oil to those flames.

Yet now, the soft pang in his heart could hardly help but want to protect Lucy, shelter her, comfort her, smother her in affection. Emotions that were forced down when Lucy and Natsu began going out, feelings that slowly tortured him when she began dating those other men, now flogged him into action. Gray took her chin and tilted it up. Despite her sniffles and shaking chest, there were still no tears in her eyes. Faking it? Or was she being stubborn about not crying in public? Still, her face looked wracked with worry, and that at least appeared to be genuine.

"Don't listen to them, Lucy." His eyes began to roam lower. How could he not stare at her chest pressed against his body, shoving those huge breasts into gravity-defying globes! Still, that would make him as bad as the men she had dated, so he forced his eyes back up to her face. "Men like that don't deserve you," he told her tenderly.

"Oh?" she mused, staring at his lips. Her fingers clutched at his back, and she knew he was affected by the way his breath hitched. "And what do I deserve?"

"Someone who respects you." Despite the warning bells in his head, Gray began to lean in until he could feel her breath on his lower lip. "Someone...who loves you."

His voice was so deep, so sensual, sparking with so much passion, Lucy felt herself blush. None of the others had ever said they loved her, not like that. "Gray," she whispered.

His lips silenced her until all she could mutter was a hum of delight at how gentle his mouth felt, nothing at all like Natsu's dry lips, the stubble that made Laxus' lips scratchy, the hardness of Gajeel's lips, or the over-eagerness that had been in each of Loke's kisses. Despite his ice magic and the chill that permiated off of his body like standing near an air conditioner on a summer day, these soft lips were warm, comforting, like a kotatsu in the middle of winter.

Lucy wondered for a moment how many girlfriends Gray must have had to be able to kiss so well. Everything about it, from the way his mouth pulled ever so slightly on her bottom lip, to how he held her, was something a person learned with plenty of practice, and Gray kissed like a pro. Still, she did not sense arrogance in the kiss, not like she had with Laxus and Loke, nor wanton hunger like Natsu and Gajeel's kisses. No, Gray's kissing ability was on a completely different level, one Lucy had not experienced in her short time dating men.

The ache in her heart that had throbbed in a dull pain since Natsu broke up with her was suddenly gone. The fiery hatred was cooled by the touch of the ice wizard. For a moment, she could forget about desires for revenge. Gray would protect her. Gray would love her. Who needed Natsu anyway?

No! She screamed at herself and squinted her eyes tighter to block out those relaxing thoughts.

She refused to slip into that comfortable dependency again. If she let herself be taken in by sweet words, it would only happen all over again, being seduced, used, and discarded. She tried to shut her emotions off to it, yet as Gray's lips pressed tighter against hers, her heart pounded hard despite herself. She refused to let herself suffer that again!

The fear of falling into that old pain helped her like a life vest in the middle of an ocean of love. She refused to drown in that emotion again, at least not until she got her revenge. Just as she felt lightness in her heart, the darkness took hold of the small recesses once again. As she kissed Gray in the park, Lucy felt like cackling.

Oh yes, this will be fun!

Then they heard a group of children making gagging noises at them. Both of their eyes opened wide in surprise. Lucy did not have to pretend at her embarrassment. She stepped back and wiped her mouth discreetly while Gray cleared his throat and rubbed the back of his neck in a nervous gesture.

"I...thanks, Gray. I think...maybe I needed to hear something like that, but...not today."

"I'm sorry." He flinched at pushing himself onto her less than an hour after her breakup.

"No," she assured quickly. "I mean, I...I need some time but..." She smiled and finally looked directly at him. "Maybe we can go somewhere in a week. Just sit and talk, if you want. I...I really need a friend to hear me out. All the rumors going around the guild have been plain vicious."

He frowned as he remembered what Mirajane had been saying. Of course, if a guy like Loke dated three girls in a week, it was no big deal, but if a girl dated three guys in six months, that made her fair game for the gossips and busybodies. How dare any of them call Lucy loose, or a tramp toying with men's hearts, or say she was leading on all these men and deserved so much heartache! Gray wanted to defend her, to protect her, to hold her and comfort away all of her sadness. She might try hiding it, she might smile, play the flirt, distract herself with many new boyfriends, but he had seen how hurt Lucy looked when she thought no one was watching.

"Erza has a mission planned for tomorrow," he mentioned casually. "When we get back, how about I treat you somewhere?"

Her face brightened up, and her smile made Gray feel immense relief. "Sounds fun!"

Then she rushed off to her house with a bounce in her step. This was going to work so perfectly! She would not rush into it, not like she did with Laxus, and she felt she would not have to worry about pressuring Gray. On the contrary, she could keep him strung along at her leisure. With any luck, she could get both Gray and Natsu jealous, maybe even have them fight over her.

Yes, a fight! A fight over me! All those people who said I'd never make good wife material, all those people in the guild who laughed at me for using my sex appeal, they'll see! Oh, how utterly devastated and humiliated Natsu will be when I pick Gray, his eternal rival, over him in front of the whole guild!

It made her chuckle just thinking about the shock on the dragon slayer's face, the tears he would cry as he ran out of the guild with a broken heart, just like when he suddenly broke up with her and she had to run out of the guild hall so people would not see her sobbing. Then they would be even. Then he would be punished and learn that it was cruel to break a girl's heart and laugh about it. And who knows! Maybe after she got her revenge, she and Gray could truly have a fun time together. That would be the sweetest revenge of all!

Lucy hopped onto the low wall by the river, precariously walking one foot in front of the other as she sang a tune.

Say that you want me every day,
That you want me every way,
That you need me,
Got me trippin' super psycho love.

End of Chapter 2

A/N: I don't own the lyrics to Super Psycho Love. It's part of the AMV this story is based upon.